Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Bookkeeping Update

Played ~700 hands to clear a $100 bonus...

-$73 in play.

NL $25 stats - +$37 (1.5 buyins) zZz...
Bonuses +$480

Okay...I got upset at the losing streak and wanted to break it.

+100 hands +$17 (while taking 2 serious beats)

NL $25 stats - +$53 (2.1 buyins) on a comeback!!! :D

+100 hands +$16

NL $25 stats - +$69 (2.75 buyins) gogogo!!!

+100 hands +$47

NL $25 stats - +$116 (4.65 buyins) u can do it!!!

+400 hands -$53

NL $25 stats - +$63 (2.5 buyins) paid off bad beats!!! need to watch the time, too...lol~

+2000? hands later...

NL $25 stats - +$237 (9.5 buyins) and I feel great!

NL $25 stats - -$300 (-12 buyins) and I feel noob!

Bonuses - $690

Sunday, April 09, 2006

How many times?

How many times have I felt like I wasn't in the right mindset to play yet played anyway?

I don't know, but it ends now.

-$110 session. A lot of bad luck was followed by me throwing away $50 on ONE hand.

NL $25 stats - +$108 (+4.3 buyins) - PATHETIC.

I QUIT - until everything else in my life is up to speed.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Ugh...

I'm feeling sick as hell (emotionally & physically.) Today was trap hand / bad beat hell from poker. I have some $20 cleared from my 2nd bonus, but I am definitely not going to return to the tables and play 2000+ more hands to clear it. So...that $20 is just going to go to waste. How very sad. The total damage for today was around -$107. I estimate that I could've mitigated about $35 of that at most.

I only went for the first bonus, because I was just too burned out from my extended dry run (and sloppy play from multitabling.) I made $30 in winnings over 1700ish hands. Today, I basically lost all of the money from those 1700 hands in addition to most of my bonus. Gee, time well spent, eh? I understand that trap hands happen, but they've been happening to me so much recently. It's hard to play against calling stations when you've been trapped so often (missing out on value bets.) Once they play back at you, though, you're usually beat. Though, their holdings are so ridiculous that it's difficult to put them on those hands and make the proper laydowns.

Let's see...what's the total damage...

Currently at...
NL $25 - $218 in play (8.7 buyins)
NL $10 - $500 in play (50 buyins)
Bonuses - $380

= +$1098.

I have a lot on my shoulders right now, and getting a ton of bad beats / trap hands is just adding up to put me on all kinds of tilt. There's a lot I need to figure out, and losing this much in a session is just devastating. I really can't take the risk of that happening again until everything else is sorted.

I am a little confused right now about how I feel about BP. The feeling is really vague, so it's hard to grasp it completely. I think how I feel about her is just a reflection of how I feel about myself, though. Probably about 10% of what I'm feeling has to do with her, which means I'm really uncertain about how I feel about myself. I never thought I would ever say something like that. I'm confident that I'll have it sorted out the next time the two of us speak.

I think there's been too much whining... I need to turn this into more of a success journal.

Friday, March 10, 2006

The challenge has been opened!

The title is a reference to a funny Full Tilt e-mail, hehe. Two poker blogs that I've read have issued themselves challenges. My time has now come for the same. ZB had a $50,000 in one month goal, I think. ZJ had a goal to complete 1,000 sit 'n gos in one month. My goal is nothing in comparison to those, but compared to how much I typically play, it's a large goal.

Basically, Partypoker is running a promotion of 3 bonuses that must be cleared within 9 days. I estimate that within the first three days, I'll have to play 700 hands per day. The second 3 days, I'll have to play 1,000 hands per day. The third 3 days, I'll have to play 1333 hands per day!

Here's the plan of attack:
  • Thursday (March 16th) - Initiate deposit and clear 2,000 hands by Saturday.
  • Sunday(46%) - Starting on the second bonus, play 3 sessions of 3 hours each. Clear 1400 hands.
  • Monday(20%) - Play 3+ hours at night. Clear 600 hands.
  • Tuesday(33%) - Start early in the morning and play until the last 1,000 hands are cleared.
  • Wednesday(30%) - Starting on the third bonus. Clear 1,200 hands.
  • Thursday(25%) - Start early in the morning and clear 1,000 hands.
  • Friday(45%) - Finish off the last 1,800 hands.
Clearly, this will take up almost all of my free time. This whole thing might seem a little extreme. But, I think this challenge will be really good for me, as it'll push me to work hard to accomplish what I want. I'm going to have to use my time extremely wisely to get everything done.

As for a response to the previous post...

I came down with a cold that made me feel miserable for most of the week, so that really halted a lot of my progress. I didn't study over the weekend for Physics, but as luck would have it, I wouldn't need to know that information for the rest of the semester. My exam results were interesting to say the least. I got 28/30 on my Speech exam. I expected 100%, but I had a brain fart while taking the exam, oh well. I got a ridiculous 102% in Math, which I think is the highest score in the class. I feel like it was mostly a combination of luck and preparation. It certainly wasn't all preparation. Naturally, one thinks of that phrase, "luck favors the prepared" here. I've mostly been coasting in the middle of the pack in college Math/Phys. courses, so it was a nice surprise. I haven't always done well, but I _could've_ always done well. I have a very good start, so I really don't want to waste that result. I want to keep it going, and I plan to. I got a 13/20 in Physics which is horrible, but considering I felt like I knew 20% of the material, it's not a terrible result for the terrible amount of studying that I did.

Obligatory poker statistics...I played a little bit of poker since the last posting. I believe I played fewer than 500 hands. But, it was quite a lucky 500 hands. In one particular fishing session, I won $60 within my first 10 hands. LOL, that session was hilarious. It's one of those poker scenarios that you theorize about, but you would never think that it could really happen. Imagine a player overraising preflop every single time. What would be the best way to exploit this? Theoretically, you'd want to be seated right in front of him so that he could do the raising for you when you catch good hands. Then, you want players to call his large raises, thinking he had a purely random hand (which he in fact does.) Finally, you reraise large (usually all-in) with your very strong hand, so that all the original callers become dead money and hope that your hand holds up against the maniac. I got seated right where I wanted. I got dealt the exact cards I needed to make the moves I wanted to 4 times within the first 10 hands. All of my hands held up. It was simply beautiful. Theory + luck = thanks. He left 10 hands later, though. He happened to be shortstacked when I sat down, which was a bummer. I could've made $200 instead of $60, but oh well, I'm more than happy about the result... simply hilarious.

I haven't played a good long session in a while, so I hope to build up that confidence during my upcoming challenge. I'm up $296 (11.8 buyins) at NL $25 and +$1078 overall. It's somewhat pointless to mention my overall winnings, as a significant portion of that includes bonuses. I'll probably just keep track of my NL $25 status from now on.

I hope to make $300 in winnings + $300 in bonuses during my 9-day challenge. But, I'll be fine if I just break even in play and collect the bonuses, because I'm still a rookie at multitable play as well as longer sessions.

On top of all that's going on, BP popped up online a few days ago. I'm fond of our interaction, so I hope she sticks around.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

24! No...not the show...

It's my 24th birthday! It's definitely a milestone like New Year's where one usually reflects on the past & plans for the future. I did a bit of that, but I do that on a regular basis, anyway.

Poker
After the last posting, I played some hardcore, high variance sessions (+3 buyins within 100 hands and also -3 buyins within 100 hands.) I reached 1,000 hands played in a single session during that period. Then, I took a break for a week due to school catching up to me. Currently, I'm at +$205 (8.2 buyins) and +$987 overall. I feel a bit more composed and possibly patient after my break from poker. Hopefully, this will reflect in my results.

School
Wow, it's been a hectic & interesting week. I crammed for my exams, again. Procrastinating is such a terrible habit. If I sit and think about it, my procrastination habits have touched (tainted!) ALL areas of my life. I was totally unprepared in Physics, so I do not think I did well at all on that exam.

In Math, I felt like I did really, really well. I haven't felt so good about an exam in years and years. Then, it dawned on me. I think I missed perhaps 3 problems out of 25. That would be around an 88% or 90%. Uhh...WTF? How have I suddenly become complacent with a score of lesser than 95% or even 100%? Seriously, my academic standards have dropped so much over the last couple of years in such a gradual way that it escaped my notice.

I overheard someone in my class saying his goal for the semester was to get 100% on all his exams in all of his classes. Naturally, I'm sure he has all the 'normal' classes, but it really caught my attention. What were MY academic goals for the semester -- for any semester, in fact. Sure, I think I knew what my goals were, but if they were really my goals, how come I didn't do anything to see them to fruition?

I've always known that my life has been structured loosely at best. I'm really seeing how important concrete goal setting & execution is now. It'll really benefit me to actually put some solid deadlines on my goals & actually do something to accomplish them. I've allocated too much flexibility into things that just plain required rigidity.

Here's some short term goals for the future that I'm confident about accomplishing:

  1. Arrive _early_ for the rest of the semester for all of my classes. Math might be a problem due to scheduling, but I'll work on it.
  2. Friday - read / do the problem sets for Phys. Chp. 21 & 22. Saturday - 23. Sunday - 24 & read the next chapter.
  3. Study for speech. I think this one is easy, as the material is somewhat interesting. Curiosity (my strongest motivator) itself will lead me to starting & finishing this task.
  4. Inbetween study sessions, I need to clean my room...LOL.
  5. I also need to work on some eBay listings. I'm not too concerned about it, so we'll see if I fit it in or not.
The schedule is fairly light, so if I don't get all of these done (with the exception of 1 & 5) by this Monday, I'm going to have to post a really good reason as to why I _could_ not accomplish my goals.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

I'm no longer a beginner...

That's what PartyPoker told me on Feb 10th. PP doesn't allow players to play in the beginners' tables if they've been PP players for over 45 days.

From approximately Dec. 27th-Feb 10th, I played NL $10 at PP. I also played perhaps 500 LHE hands at .15/.30 with excellent results. Yeah, I should get PokerTracker, but it's fairly expensive if I can't split the cost with someone else.

Anyway, at my time in the beginner's section, I won the equivalent of ~50 NL $10 buyins in addition to ~$260 in accrued bonuses. The results look very good, but I really feel like I could've played much better. It's okay, though, because I valued NL $10 more as a low risk learning experience than as an opportunity to make money.

I've had 3-4 serious sessions in NL $25 so far. The swings seem to be more severe, but that may just be an illusion caused by the stakes being higher. I can definitely beat this level, but there's much more to be learned. I am going to be playing NL $25 for quite some time to come. I still consider myself to be very much a beginner.

I'm at +$138 (5.5 buyins) after about 2,000 hands in addition to $21 from a bonus. For self-reference, my PP balance is currently stating $380 for +$138 in play.

Overall, I'm at +$920 from play / bonuses, which I'm happy with. I'm definitely not satisfied with stopping there, though!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

omghi2u

I've been wanting to start up one of these for quite some time now, but I've been reluctant. Seeing hundreds of blank posts waiting to be filled out in the years to come created an ultimate writer's block. I also try to be very deliberate with my word choice, which makes writing a public journal a little too time consuming.

However, my desire for a 'blog has increased. I wish to keep notes on various aspects of my life. The reason I've chosen to write publically is for leverage to follow through. If I state something on here, anyone (including myself) that reads it can hold me accountable.

I am mostly writing for myself, so read at your own risk.

Ae^kt is a formula for exponential growth. I want to grow. Who doesn't, amirite?