Ugh...
I'm feeling sick as hell (emotionally & physically.) Today was trap hand / bad beat hell from poker. I have some $20 cleared from my 2nd bonus, but I am definitely not going to return to the tables and play 2000+ more hands to clear it. So...that $20 is just going to go to waste. How very sad. The total damage for today was around -$107. I estimate that I could've mitigated about $35 of that at most.
I only went for the first bonus, because I was just too burned out from my extended dry run (and sloppy play from multitabling.) I made $30 in winnings over 1700ish hands. Today, I basically lost all of the money from those 1700 hands in addition to most of my bonus. Gee, time well spent, eh? I understand that trap hands happen, but they've been happening to me so much recently. It's hard to play against calling stations when you've been trapped so often (missing out on value bets.) Once they play back at you, though, you're usually beat. Though, their holdings are so ridiculous that it's difficult to put them on those hands and make the proper laydowns.
Let's see...what's the total damage...
Currently at...
NL $25 - $218 in play (8.7 buyins)
NL $10 - $500 in play (50 buyins)
Bonuses - $380
= +$1098.
I have a lot on my shoulders right now, and getting a ton of bad beats / trap hands is just adding up to put me on all kinds of tilt. There's a lot I need to figure out, and losing this much in a session is just devastating. I really can't take the risk of that happening again until everything else is sorted.
I am a little confused right now about how I feel about BP. The feeling is really vague, so it's hard to grasp it completely. I think how I feel about her is just a reflection of how I feel about myself, though. Probably about 10% of what I'm feeling has to do with her, which means I'm really uncertain about how I feel about myself. I never thought I would ever say something like that. I'm confident that I'll have it sorted out the next time the two of us speak.
I think there's been too much whining... I need to turn this into more of a success journal.
I only went for the first bonus, because I was just too burned out from my extended dry run (and sloppy play from multitabling.) I made $30 in winnings over 1700ish hands. Today, I basically lost all of the money from those 1700 hands in addition to most of my bonus. Gee, time well spent, eh? I understand that trap hands happen, but they've been happening to me so much recently. It's hard to play against calling stations when you've been trapped so often (missing out on value bets.) Once they play back at you, though, you're usually beat. Though, their holdings are so ridiculous that it's difficult to put them on those hands and make the proper laydowns.
Let's see...what's the total damage...
Currently at...
NL $25 - $218 in play (8.7 buyins)
NL $10 - $500 in play (50 buyins)
Bonuses - $380
= +$1098.
I have a lot on my shoulders right now, and getting a ton of bad beats / trap hands is just adding up to put me on all kinds of tilt. There's a lot I need to figure out, and losing this much in a session is just devastating. I really can't take the risk of that happening again until everything else is sorted.
I am a little confused right now about how I feel about BP. The feeling is really vague, so it's hard to grasp it completely. I think how I feel about her is just a reflection of how I feel about myself, though. Probably about 10% of what I'm feeling has to do with her, which means I'm really uncertain about how I feel about myself. I never thought I would ever say something like that. I'm confident that I'll have it sorted out the next time the two of us speak.
I think there's been too much whining... I need to turn this into more of a success journal.
posted by Daniel at 3:09 AM
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